Uggh!

Well, this isn't going to be pretty. Arrow is doing well. She wants to run and play, but then realizezs that she can't really do that because it kind of hurts. The radiated area is really, really ugly. Let's just say that Sally tells me I shouldn't look at it. She has agreed to do wound care. Reasons why I love my wife: She knows my limits.

I've been having a hard time seeing her. She is kind of tired because of her pain med. I also think this whole process is wiping her out some. The next two weeks are going to continue to be worse and I can't imagine what that will look like. I think her leg might fall off (OK, that's the drama I was mentioning in an earlier blog).

I know in my heart that this is the right thing to do. But I have to say I'm giving it second thoughts. I don't know if she knows what's happening. I don't know if she thinks we're hurting or helping her. If the cancer comes back soon did we just impact the quality of her life? Ugghhhh.....

I think Sally will have a different take on this whole experience, but for me...it's hard.